I am taken with the hot animal
of my skin, grateful to swing my limbs
and have them move as I intend, though
my knee, though my shoulder, though something
is torn or tearing. Today, a dozen squid, dead
on the harbor beach: one mostly buried,
one with skin empty as a shell and hollow
feeling, and, though the tentacles look soft,
I do not touch them. I imagine they
were startled to find themselves in the sun.
I imagine the tide simply went out
without them. I imagine they cannot
feel the black flies charting the raised hills
of their eyes. I write my name in the sand:
Donika Kelly. I watch eighteen seagulls
skim the sandbar and lift low in the sky.
I pick up a pebble that looks like a green egg.
To the ditch lily I say I am in love.
To the Jeep parked haphazardly on the narrow
street I am in love. To the roses, white
petals rimmed brown, to the yellow lined
pavement, to the house trimmed in gold I am
in love. I shout with the rough calculus
of walking. Just let me find my way back,
let me move like a tide come in.
by Donika Kelly
被我皮肤的炽热野兽
所吸引,我心怀感激地摆动手脚
它们听从我的指挥,虽然我的膝盖,
我的肩膀,有些什么东西
已经撕裂或正被撕裂。今天,有十几只鱿鱼,死在
港口岸边:有一只几乎被沙土掩埋,
有一只已经空如贝壳或者空洞的感情
虽然触手看起来柔软,
我也不会触碰它们。我想像它们被惊醒
发现自己正暴露在阳光下。
我想像潮涌中没有它们。
我想像它们不能感知
那些勘探它们小山一样
隆起的眼睛的苍蝇。我在沙地上写我的名字:
多尼卡·凯利。我看到十八只海鸥
掠过沙堤低飞到空中。
我捡起一块绿色鸟蛋一样的卵石。
我对萱草花说我爱上了一个人。
我对街上随意停放的吉普车说我爱上了一个人。
对嵌着褐色边缘的白玫瑰花
对衬着黄线的马路,
对镶了金边的房屋说我爱上了一个人。
我在步数不精确的微积分中
呼喊。让我找到回家的路吧,
让我运动,就像海水潮涌而来。
作者 / [美国] 多尼卡·凯利
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